My Pictures

MildCicada

I've been wanting to start posting pictures of myself/my outfits/etc. for a while, but have felt too weird and embarrassed to do so in the past. This has been for a multitide of reasons, such as it being out of character or something I've never done before on Instagram/Tumblr/etc. Therefore the people and friends who follow me would think it was odd or weird or something. Or because people would all be secretly thinking I was cringe and ugly looking if I DID start posting pics of myself lol. It's kinda just felt to me like one of those things that I can't start doing because everyone would know that I'm not one of those people who does those things; Like wearing a hat out in public when you're not a hat person, and you're thinking that everyone around you KNOWS you're not a hat person. So I thought I would make a Neocities site specifically to do this. That's why this isn't connected to any other social media I have, or my other neocities site. Not that I need to explain this, but I want to. I feel like I get too caught up in the specific niches of what I post in places, and feel as if I am stuck/unable to post anything outside that label on specific accounts/sites. Especially because I imagine the people who have followed me on specific accounts being uninterested/dissapointed/hate anything I post that doesn't fit the specific label of content for that site I've created in my head. So I have an obligation to stay doing that.

Also, is it unusual to post IRL pictures on yourself on Neocities? I know I can do whatever I want bla bla but I would just like to know. I feel like on the rare occasions I do see it, its outfit pics people have with their faces cropped out (because they're part of a specific fashion subculture ala Lolita and just wanna share the fit), or people who are doing actual professional/semi-professional photography and posting actual like...edited high quality artsy pictures of themselves, or like 1 irl picture of a person on their 'About Me' or something. Most of the sites I see on here are like..people's art/comics/general internet fandom stuff. Though obviously I've probably only seen a very small fraction of EVERYTHING on here lol. And I guess most people may build sites to talk/do stuff on the internet with a sense of anonimity like there was in earlier internet cultures. But I want cute pictures of myself to be seen by others :P. If you do have a site where you post IRL pictures of yourself like this I'd like to see it :D.

Also, as stated earlier, I'm kind of so weird about what I "allow" myself to post on different sites/accounts/etc. And also like paranoid I guess about like ??? IDK what if I post something nsfw somewhere and I get cancelled because its a problematic kink or some bs tumblr antiship proship cancelling crazyness. Even typing this out I'm like OMG what if someone reading this assumes the worst of me and that I'm into something "ACTUALLY FUCKED UP"""" as opposed to something that's like... socially acceptable tumblr kink aesthetic puppy play trans zine art style art. I do firmly believe that nothing someone does(finish later)

Something else that stopped me from making this page and actually having it "finished" (errr in a state where everything works I guess LOL) had been that I usually only take pictures of myself in like. 1 spot inside my apt, and never really out and about. So the backgrounds aren't pretty, and I thought I should remove the backgrounds from my photos etc. ect. to make it look better. But that would actually be so much work. So I never did it. And I probably won't. Because it's not worth the effort. I will just have to deal with the subpar backgrounds and lack of aesthetic locations. But I do wanna try and make a corner of where I live really pretty and aesthetic exclusively so I can take pictures of myself there in the future LOL.

It would be to much effort to organize these pictures in any meaningful way, but as I add more, they'll likely be in at least semi-chronological order.

Outside of these pictures, imagine myself dressing like this every other day of my life: